Twin Peaks

Finally getting into this show... after I don't know, 15-16 episodes? I do enjoy Lynch, but I wouldn't call myself a diehard fan, sometimes maybe I'm even a pseudo-fan at times. It's something about his style that both intrigues and disgusts simultaneously, as if it's intentionally in bad taste to almost dare you to continue watching, to challenge yourself; not to mention some of it can be a straight-up bore at times. He can also make some of the best actors/actresses seem like the absolute worst (other times they're just bad picks; to this day, I still don't get his obsession with Laura Dern). While I may not always respect his work as a artform, I do respect his originality. His films may be tough to get through sometimes but at least they're generally only a few hours, so I'm not exactly trudging too long through some of the torturous bits... and I will admit, I do leave with more to think about than most films; which is ultimately what I come to films for, to leave with something to ponder and possibly draw my own conclusions from. And whether that final impression is good or bad, great or awful, it's very rarely ever indifferent.

The problem with Twin Peaks for me inherently was that it wasn't only a few hours. Watching the first few episodes I could only say: "Oh, it's only 30+ hours to go." However, now I watch it because I find it entertaining, not because I want to leave with something (although I do anyway). The typical awkward Lynch humor is always there, but there are some genuinely funny moments through out too (Andy for example). Even some moments can be frightening or even emotional, if still marred by early 90s production values and sometimes bad acting. To be honest, I like most of the characters and actors here, the few that I don't have mostly grown on me (Lara Flynn Boyle is still such a bore though).

I do think I finally get Lynch now. It took all his movies and his TV series to do it, but I think I do. It's all just an ongoing capture of a stream-of-consciousness dream-state. But most of all, it's dark comedy, even if he never fully intended such.

To call Lynch pretentious or weird-to-be-weird is just too easy, and totally misses the point. That point being? I dunno.

does "adult-oriented" necessarily have to mean tons of sex and swear words?

well?

and I'll remain, the would-be collector of your automated love.

i hate this continuous shift our society has towards impatience and anti-intelligence all for the sake of being ordinary, or as conversation, or to be "cool." i wouldn't know or care about so many of my favorite things if i weren't originally slightly patient with most of them. good things hit you across the face with their immediacy. great things take time. sometimes lots.

but if you just want good and not great, fine, that's your prerogative.

nothing you ever said was genuine

and now I’m the bad guy for thinking there might have been love there

you know exactly what to say to people and exactly the right time to say it

and it makes everybody so happy for those moments

but that affection murders your soul

because everyone wants to be your friend

because everyone loves you

because you’re a sell out to yourself

and you can’t ever say the “wrong” thing

so the annoying ones never go away,

so the assholes never fuck off---

I’ve always said the wrong thing at the wrong time on the wrong side of the planet

so somehow we must be perfect for eachother

but no

what I’d give for one drop of affection

not even yours (it'd be fake anyway)

these paintings just stare back

these words no longer phase me

this self-hate is no more than some wounded half-philosophy

it’s not even self-hate anymore

it’s just fucking pathetic